Recently I was introduced to Brene Brown, or at least her TED talk on vulnerability. It is a wonderful expose, and I think it applies in cooking and gardening – to have joy and creativity and love in these activities, one must embrace vulnerability. It will be imperfect… but it will be enough! Brene Brown says “LEAN IN” to the vulnerability.
I realize one of my vulnerabilities is the climate here on the Coast. I want to numb it… my fear of this wet weather. It is painful for me. I am uncomfortable here, knowing the climate is humid, wet,… and I need to find a way to be gentle with myself in this area, and stop screaming (!). LEAN IN. Today I had a reprieve.
Small, light crystals fell from the sky with a gentle constancy all day long. The first photo you can see the girls happily sledding down our little hillside towards our hedge. The second is taken as I lie in the snow up by our mailboxes and look down towards our house. A friend in Fort St. John commented “OMG that’s hilarious”. Yes, except from my vantage point it is reality. Now it is simply the light dusting of a town, that takes the edges and the noise out of everything. All that is left is laughter, joy, peace.
To me it is not hilarious at all that this is a rare snow day for my family. It is tragic. Our day was delightful, perfect – I was truly in heaven on earth. And of course I want more. More, more, more. Here is what I love about snow and why I would give a LOT to have this happen more often:
2. Lying flat on my belly in it and not getting wet (today was cold enough I could!)
3. Seeing my 6 year old jump out of the van at 1:45, head outdoors, and not dream of coming in until 3.5 hours later when supper was on the table; even then she was outside in the dark, alone (and the best part… not yet cold as it was barely below zero!)
4. How it breeds activity and industriousness (snow removal out of need, or just fun!)
5. How it sticks to every branch of a tree and coats every corner of toys, BBQ, chairs, and other paraphernalia,… softening it all just a bit
6. It brings neighbors together to make snowmen (we made one with our backdoor neighbor today!)
8. How it breeds creativity, cooperation, and playfulness
9. How it brings out big smiles on little faces
10. How it feels warm in my heart and yet dry, cool and crisp on my face
I will always be a HUGE fan of snow. Most people on the Coast love that it stays “in the mountains where it belongs”. I disagree. And this sets us apart. I strongly believe it belongs outside my doorstep, to greet me and meet me, right there where I need it. Not a 2.5 hour drive (shudder!) away. Life is always easier to take with a good dose of light, crisp snow.
Logically I know there is so much other beauty to behold here. Still, I will never give up a good snow day. I am so incredibly grateful for today. And I could live a lifetime of todays. I quite simply LOVE snow around my home.
To me this skiff of snow creates in me a struggle, as it may not happen as often as I need it to. Or want it to. I desperately want to grow up with my children in snow. Yet here I am, Coastal. Feeling vulnerable. Struggling. Wanting to fix it. In my snowy steps out to the hot tub tonight I embrace the struggle, as I know it means I am alive! LEAN IN.